Exam Effect

Now that examinations are over, it is time to discuss what happened during study breaks. My friends and I agreed on this thing called the exam effect, I don't know the exact scientific term, but let's just call it the exam effect. As the name suggest, it seem to only occur during the period before exams and subside once exams are over. So what is this effect about? It was discovered during my "A" Level study break. Anime, mangas, games, movies, everything and anything that is not related to studies seemed way more interesting than studying. I am sure many people experienced this too. This was confirmed during my study break for university too as the same effect took place. The surprising thing is that once after exams, there is really no urge to do these leisure activities anymore. Currently, I seem to lose interest in watching my anime and I have no idea what to do during this short break before school starts. It is certainly nice to take a break but I just can't stand the fact that the animes that I loved to watch during the exam period, didn't appeal to me currently.

This effect is certainly detrimental to my grades and I have no idea and no way to overcome it, my guess is my self discipline is way too low. If I were to be able to resist in conducting these leisure activities, all these pent up demand will certainly explode after exams and I believe that anime and etc will be very enjoyable to watch. Does anyone also feel the same way?

School Life

I think it might seem boring that I keep typing about school life, but what to do? I have no other life. Even if i were to be free, I will be spending my leisure time staying at home reading manga, some light novels and watching anime. However, university has mainly reduced my leisure time. I know that school is coming to an end, which also means that exams are coming in 14 days, but I am just able to get rid of the laziness. Being at home makes me feel like slacking, but going out to study will also mean that I will have to spend the money on transport and food, and also waste time travelling. Even though walking is my only exercise, I pretty to lie in bed doing nothing.

Currently, I am reading Mahouka Koukou no Rettousei. Although I have watched the anime, I feel that anime tends to cut a lot of details and sometimes I prefer anime is because I cannot visualise the fight scenes or the light novel/manga has not been translated. Being a lazy person, I can't be bothered to learn Japanese.  Reading Mahouka Koukou no Rettousei makes me look back at myself.

*POSSIBLE SPOILERS ALERT*

It makes me think back about why I chose to study Engineering. What are my dreams? What have I done to work towards them? What are my talents? Do I even know my strengths and weaknesses? Then I also realised that as a normal Singaporean, we like to compare with others and are afraid of losing to others. I admit I have the tendency to do that too but I would like to convince myself that if I tried my best, I shouldn't compare with others. Everyone works hard, but different people have different learning ability, so we should not compare. However, I am unable to convince myself as I am lazy and hard do my work, I can't really blame anyone when I don't do well. Who wouldn't want to do well? When I don't do well, I will feel demoralised but I don't change my ways. I wonder how long more or how many more set backs will it take for me to actually start working hard...

Sometimes, don't we all wish we are some over powered main character of our own life? And not some minor character or even an invisible passer-by?

Always Tired

We usually see memes on the internet about how people are confident that they will be able to wake up for their 8am or even 9am lectures. I also wondered, how hard can that be? However, after experiencing university life for about 11 weeks, I realized that I still cannot get used to waking up early in the morning and commute for more than 1.5h to school to attend that 8am lecture or 9am tutorial. It is really quite difficult. I realized what exactly was the problem. Most, if not all, activities only start after 6pm where it is certain that most people will be available to join the activities. If you do not live in school, after attending CCAs, it might end at about 9+ 10+. By the time you each home, it will be close to 12. After bathing and other things that you have to do, the earliest you can sleep is only at 1am. Imagine waking up at 5+ next morning just for the 8am lecture. HAHA quite impossible. It is no wonder why i keep sleeping during lectures. You might say that I should be mentally prepared to have a lack of time if I join CCA. Yes I am prepared but it seems that my body and my eyes just cannot get used to it. Hence, I am always tired.